Trusting the Universe

Well, things have been fast, frustrating but utterly transformational of late! I'm a completely different version of myself, have jumped many timelines and am in the most happy, grounded, centred and expansive space I've ever been in this lifetime. However, it hasn't been easy at all! But the best things come with a bit of work and potholes along the way. The potholes show us the best lessons so we can grow.

So, having been through the breast cancer journey, I started to get my life back on track when the next health thing came in about 18 months later. The medication I'd been recommended was now causing problems elsewhere and I had urgent appointments, biopsies and an MRI to see if I now had uterine cancer. Exploratory surgery found it wasn't cancer thank goodness, but I needed a procedure which left me bleeding heavily for months and very anaemic. But it wasn't cancer, so I was relived and grateful for that. It took me quite a while to recover and get back on my feet again. All I could do was focus inwards on myself as my body needed time to heal from those two BIG things. I used Reiki self healing every day and built myself up again.

The Universe certainly steps in when it needs to. Being a typical Capricorn and ridiculously driven all my life, I tried to push forward too soon. So on New Year's Eve, whilst ironically making myself a sleepy herbal tea, I bumped my head on the kitchen cupboard door and suffered a really nasty concussion! Again, I was stopped in my tracks and had to go through another slow, frustrating healing process. I couldn't drive for 4 months and was totally stranded at home unless a friend popped by to give me a lift. At the time I was fed up, frustrated and bored, but something came my way that filled the days, helped my brain to heal, and has taken me on a totally new healing path.

My dearest friend and Reiki teacher, Grenville, and I have the most amazing conversations about energy healing and he asked me if I could help him to update his Sekhem teaching manuals. If you've not heard of Sekhem, it's a powerful practice that I have used for my own deep dive inwards, originating in Egypt and like Reiki, has many people coming for treatments and teaching in these times of great change. I jumped at the opportunity and we both felt it was a really helpful thing for my brain to heal and for the synapses to function better. At first there were so many typos and I could only do so much before fatigue hit me, but we did it, and are both delighted with the result.

Of course, as I typed, edited, and discussed certain aspects with Grenville, I was learning all about it myself! I finished the final teachings of levels 1&2 last week and am now a Sekhem practitioner. We've started updating his next manual so I will learn the next steps as I type and edit! I've always had an enquiring mind, so I'm constantly learning and expanding my own knowledge and experience. I have great teachers around me, the best, I'm so blessed.

However, I still have to pace myself and not push too hard. I have a new relationship with the fatigue and pain of fibromyalgia. Before, I was trying to flow with it but was frustrated that with all the wonderful things I was doing for my body and mental/emotional health, it kept sticking around. Now I understand it. It is my brake. The Universe uses it to slow me down when I push myself too hard and descend into my masculine 'survival' energy. Having done the spiritual work and healed my feminine, allowing me to Be, to flow, to receive, the fibro brake is the balance between the two. All is well.

I've released so much of the trauma that was stuck in my body, I've finally become who I was always meant to be, I have the most beautiful souls in my life, and I'm truly contented. The Universe knows best, and for me, to shake me out of all the stagnant gloop in my system, it had to shake things up pretty drastically. But I'm where I am now, and not looking back. Wendy has found her Sophia self (Carl Yung, google it!) and the only way is up!

Trusting the Universe (God, Source, the Creator/Creatrix, All that Is, whatever you call 'it') takes you to where you're meant to be. The flow, surrender, no expectations, no worries, gratitude, the power of intention, self compassion, sends a message to the Universe and it responds! People who knew me before don't recognise the shining version of me that sits in front of them now. Even my boys say I look 10 years younger!

If you are ready for the deep dive into your own healing, I'm here with Reiki to open up the first layers of the onion, to gently start processing and releasing what no longer serves, and then we can dive deeper with Sekhem to release the deeper wounds when you're ready. It's a process. It has taken me nearly 6 years to get to where I'm at now, but there was a lot to work through! The healing energies are moving quicker and quicker for us now as more people heal and shift in consciousness on this planet. Exciting times!