I was sent this beautiful reminder by a dear friend this week. It resonated greatly with me and I wanted to pass it on.
I've been beating myself up for most of my life, trying to please those around me, setting myself ludicrously high goals, driving myself into the ground taking little care of my own needs and health. It wasn't good and I ended up very poorly, having to give up almost everything I loved as I was in a great deal of pain and chronically fatigued.
My world fell apart and I had no idea what to do.
The friend who sent me this has been a huge part of starting me on my healing path. She has been a constant in my life over these last difficult years and I love her dearly. Then the Universe brought me a wonderful homeopath who has helped me look at all aspects of my physical, mental and emotional wellbeing. She still supports me now and I'm off all my pain medications. I have also worked with other holistic practitioners on different aspects of my health.
The next level of my healing was when I, completely out of the blue, connected with my amazing Reiki teacher. Working with him on all aspects of my wellbeing and my spirituality, has brought me to a much better place of acceptance and deep healing.
Reiki allowed me and supported me to let go and totally surrender to the deep dive I would take into healing all the trauma that I had carried since I was a very young child.
Doing 'the work' is certainly not for the faint hearted. But I can, with my hand on my heart, say it's the best thing I ever did for myself. I've had some very dark days dealing with the sub-conscious emotional trauma, and allowing it all to be felt, acknowledged and let go. It's a linear process that I will now carry on with for the rest of this lifetime, but it has brought me back to who I was always meant to be. I'm now getting to know who I am and loving the process.
The strange thing is, that people with exactly the same kinds of trauma are finding their way to me, and my healing is supporting theirs as well. What an honour. And I don't need to PUSH myself. It all happens effortlessly. I don't need to expend my precious energy, I choose who I share my energy with and when. A smile at a stranger is healing, a kind word to someone who needs it is healing, holding space in silence is healing.
The new Wendy doesn't need to turn herself inside out to please people, she just needs to BE and that's more than enough.
Sending you all much love......